Tuesday, August 2, 2011

First Milestone

Tomorrow marks Brayden's 6 week Heavenly Birthday. It also happens to be my birthday...which I'm afraid is going to be very hard on me.  Every Wednesday since the day he was born has been extremely hard. Each week, I find myself watching the clock all day. From the very beginning I have dreaded this particular week. We are supposed to get Brayden's stone in sometime this week...I know that's going to be very hard. Also, something about Brayden not being in my arms for 6 weeks scares me. I guess I don't want to believe that he's really gone. I am still very numb to what has happened. I didn't expect to lose Brayden the way we did. I know that he is in the arms of Jesus, much better than my arms, but the selfish side of me wants him here. I would do anything in the world to just hold him one more time. I have been looking through his pictures over and over tonight and thought I would share some of them with you all. This blog has been very therapeutic for me and what an awesome thing to know that so many of you have prayed for my precious baby boy. Your prayers were answered...my baby is completely healed. I thank God for that. I also thank God that so many of you recognize Brayden's life. That means more to me than anything.

                                                                  Sweet angel

                              Bryce loved holding Baby Brayden. He asks about him all the time.
The things in this life that I have taken for granted...I just realized that this will be our only complete family picture. I'm so very thankful for this memory.